went out the day before. met fiona wanted to get a bag but ehh, cant seem to find one i really like. then we went to chinese garden. haha. ate at some hawker centre near there. had sheng mian tang. quite nice sia. then she had porridge. anyway she's sick that's why she's having porridge.

went to the lantern festival. nice sia. really nice. hehe. anyway had a candy dragonfly. hehe. shall upload the pic when she send me. she called her friends down. junior to be exact. very cute sia that cindy. she ask me why i dont want take pic of myself with the objects. haha. i was like stunned lah. haha. but i might have taken pic of myself if i had my phone with me. but my phone wasnt awhile. went off after awhile cause cindy and friends have finish walking through the whole place. haha. then went to the train station and i left cause they went staying around boon lay area and me? SEMBAWANG! haha. and by the time i reacherd home, fiona reach home already lor. haha.

oh ya i sent my phone for servicing on tues with waney. met with jes and ifah also. catch up abit then jes left awhile after ifah came cause she have to go back for dinner. so we went to eat at geylang. haha. nice sia the food. ehh, maybe is cause i'm starving lah. haha. cause must wait for them to break fast then can eat together. haha. after eating we sat around and waited for ifah's bf to come cause all wan tgo see the bazaar. walked around and saw quite alot of outrageous malay outfit sia. really too much lor. so unsuitable for their religion kind. too over lah. so revealing lor. anyway bounce back on the way home. played a funny game. haha. damn funny sia. shall teach someone to play next time. haha. abit retarded lah. wahaha.

yest went out with ma to get back our phones and damn. those bastards there scratched my phone lor. asshole! so now i'm trying to find ways to make them change the screen for me. haha. went to far east and saw a bag then immediately buy lor. quite nice lah. haha. i love it! =D took the train to tpy. and best is we overshot. haha. kuku sia. then both of us didnt realise until we miss the station. funny sia. haha. anyway accompanied her to get her phone. N70! are you jealous? haha. had to wait for the stocks to come in so we went to kfc to break fast. cheezito is nice~ go try it! =D bought her phone and went to her house. we missed the stationg again! omg. how come right? twice in a day leh. duhhh. anyway ate again. mee soto~ so nice can? i love her mommy's cooking. hehe.

we tried video calling. haha. so fun lor. been using it constructively. woohoo~

today met her again to cwp. walked around to waste time. then went to the pasar malem . she got a hot pink casing for her N70. super nice sia the colour. decided to walked to admiralty. tried to change her casing but i scared break the thing so went to triple 8 to get help. haha. funny lor. changed the casing but she claim that inside dirty, so we went to her house to fix it again. all my nails are like spoilt because of trying to open the casing. ahhh~

reached her home. fixed her phone then had to go cause my bf was meeting me. finally. after so many days of not meeting, we are finally meeting. kope some food from her hosue before leaving. so nice sia. fried banana!!!! muahaha. ate again. miss him so much~ he's such a pig.

we've been quarrelling somehow. blehs. but i still love my bf~ haha

oh ya, we (ma and me) got approached by some guys to ask us to go modelling. duhh. and worst is we keep seeing them boring~~~ haha.

went out with my bitchy bf. went to city hall. wanted to go for steamboat one but my dad cooked. YAY~ nice food. hehe. so changed of plans. animals rock lah. ( for those who doesnt know, animal is a brand!) tried on a white top. so nice can!!! haha. but it's damn revealing lah. and best is you cant wear a bra lah. it's bare behind. haha. tried it. loved it. buttttttttt.... no occasion to wear. duhh. sadded. haha.

walked around and saw this sort of art gallery look alike.

some of the art pieces:






apparently we wanted to take a pic of ourselves in front of the painting but i FORGOT i've zoomed my cam. so our pic became like this:




















haha.

walked around. took like so many pics. hehe. wanted to take a pic of myself. but he decided to kaypoh last min and my pic turn out like that:

























this is our beloved durian:



us =D :


plants by the road:


my photography skills aint that bad after all. haha.


and this is that flower i forced him to pluck for me. =x oops. haha. pretty right? okay, it got squash abit. haha.



we saw this shoes.

guess how much it is worth??














i bet none of you will get it correct. it's from wizard of ox pricing at 660bucks. too cheap for me to afford. haha. =)

we went in toys'r'us. haha. had fun playing there. tsk tsk. roses for me~


aint my bf sweet? and cute? and so sweet? hehe.

ate here.



food aint that bad lah. quite nice. hehe.

went to giant(marina sq) to get veg for the pigs.



went to esplanade the roof terrace there. and we started to cam whore again. wahaha.



that pig decided to kay poh again and my pic turn out like that:






















so cute right? muahahah.


there were some hip hop competition and a fourteen/fifteen year old girl stunned us all. she was damn cool. so so cool lor. she dance even better than those group performance especially those girls group who try to use their sex appeal to win over the judges.

oh ya, we settled our dinner at kou fu at millenia walk there. and their herbal chicken was much nicer and bigger and nicer than most place i've tried. worth eating there. haha.

we went past a restaurant and they've got all kinds of cakes being named after certain terms of sex? haha. but the cake seems damn nice!!

we bought one pint of haagen dazs ice cream home. so nice lor. and we managed to finish it. wahaha. so fattening. tsk tsk. the person who served us was good. good service. excellent i should say. =)

he bit me. that nuthead. he's so so so so dead lor. haha.

didnt have enough sleep cause we woke up 6plus in the morning when we slept at 2plus last night. went to have breakfast lah. had roti prata. and guess what? it's getting suckier and suckier each time we went. today they gave us cold pratas with very diluted curry. so gross lor. the tea suck too. but everything became fine with him around.


okay, the main topic i wanna say is...












fei's so bitchy lor. keep waking mochi while she's trying to sleep. pig right?! haha.

see the different resting pose of my pigs:


this is mochi.


and fei.



and flip.



and...




















that nuthead~ wahaha.




haha. didnt mange to take a pic of berry cause he was too far away from me. haha.

damn feeling emo-ish somehow. and worst all the shows i'm watching is like all relating to death. dammit.

blah blah blah.

life sucks?
life's beautiful?
life's a bitch?
life's wonderful?

damn i dont know what to feel.

sch's starting in 2 plus weeks and yay, it'll still be a sucky life in sch as usual. let's see who i can talk to? ehh, fiona's clique? bah! nah, think i shant talk much. it's much better to remain silent i guess.

damn. how i wish i'm in my dream school now. i might be able to see wenjie there and that will be good enough to brighten up my life. haha. and now i've like nothing to do. needa find another job to increase my social life so one day i may be invited back to swiss club for their oktoberfest. =D

http://loveisbeingstupidtogether.blogspot.com/ the owner of this blog is so bitchy lor. but i like. wahaha.

i feel like i'm a fish in a fishbowl. ya, that's how i feel.

dont know is bosheng got help me get my grp ppl num not. if not, let fate bring us back together again. i so love working now. yay~

oh ya, i watched twin falls idaho. such a sad show lor. watch till wanna cry siak. so sad. sad sad sad. =( but it's a very nice show. recommended to watch. =]

woo. finally i'm able to online. so tired after these few days of working.

did one day of 'factory' job. very tiring. had to keep packing and packing. but pay not bad lah. haha. then thurs and fri work at swiss club!!! so cool right? dont be jealous k? hehes. saw all these cool, damn rich, business people.

day 1:

job was good. there were some girls dressed up as maiden and yea, they stole our cust. obviously most guys would prefer to order from the maidens right?

met some unreasonable cust who claimed that they've ordered their beer and their erdinger didnt come so they will take mine instead. they asked to switched their orders which was prefectly NOT RIGHT! and said that when the person they've ordered from come back just switch over then can liao. i was like wth lor. i'm not in charge of you/your orders so obviously i cant what. and better still you cant even tell me which damn girl took your order so how would i know if you're telling the truth? anyway that woman hooker, okay maybe she's not one but damn, she look real like one flirting around, snatched my THREE erdinger away lor. DAMN BITCH SIAK. of cause i freak out lah. each mug of erdinger is like 12 bucks lor. three is like 36BUCKS! how on earth can i afford that right? and best is i cant find my upline. went over to the malay guy who was in charge of that tables to ask how then he say just go grab 3 mugs back lah. but it's not possible what. you cant take any beer away without the coupons! then another guy came over to help. and suddenly one of them spotted the organizer and we rush over to tell him bout it. *ppl in charge of the beer were not allowed to give us any beer even during such situation without those organizers' commands* so finally the prob was solved when the organizer took three more beer to give back my cust.

thanks man. =D

one maiden got caught to take picture with the cust. super funny. obviously she cant retaliate lah. then bo bian let the guy hold the waist there take pic. lol.

then nearing the middle of the night most ppl were partially drunk and you can see them jumping and dancing on the tables and those mugs of beer were like going to fall off any moment. haha. super funny lor. had fun with my group ppl. my new closer friend -> nadia! ah niu, jason, sham, one guy which i dont know the name. oops. haha. damn fun lor they. then we like quite slack like that. but i see scott like more slack sia. they were serving the vips. woah. haha.

saw a girl who was quite hot dancing to dancing queen. hehe.

i served a pan pac manager or sth. she was damn cool. so polite. i like her. hehe.

took a cab home. and crap lor they only give 10bucks each of cab fare. thankfully i was sharing cab with scott if not die. how to survive lor. 10 bucks only leh. then plus midnight charge leh. where got enough right? duhhh.

day 2:

abit sucky cause my feet was aching like hell lor. (i'm wearing high heels lah.) adn i'm the only girl left in my group cause nadia never come. =(

starting got this two ang moh who is damn interested in one particular maiden. then the malay guy who helped me went to ask their orders and they shoo him off and then happily called that maiden over to buy beer from her. then i saw him and he said 'biatch'. haha. so funny lor.

then got a group of ppl who came in. they started leaving 2 packs of cigarette on the ashtray for 2 rows of table. then got this guy in his mid 20s i think, started paying for everyone's drink. i mean those sitting on the 2 rows lah. quite good looking, rich somemore. i think my bf looks abit like him. muahaha. while we were on the way home then scott tell me those who are paying for the drinks are the boss. my god. so young lor that guy. good looking somemore. no wonder when some china guy wanted plain water i ask him he want a cup only or a bottle then he say just take bottle lor, 过门是客. my god my god. i missed my chance!! haha.

saw another cute german guy i think. not really sure bout his nationality. he was wearing some traditional costumes i guess. so cute lor. they were walking around in a line hands on the person in front. then he walked past me and i saw and he saw me looking at him then he show those paiseh face. SUPER CUTE LOR. haha.

saw some hot girls. they're nicky's friends i think. i think nicky and michelle are damn cool lor. haha. they're in charge of schnaps. totally cool~

alot of ppl order kirsch and appenzeller. and one lady ask me who's better. i was like ' erm, i'm not very sure?' i havent try any of it before lah. haha. she ordered kirsch in the end cause the friend say it was nice. shall try it some day. hehe. but it's damn expensive sia. 8bucks for a very small bottle. think the most 15ml? okay, i dont really suit the high life right now. haha.

yesterday the atmosphere was even higher than the day before. every one was dancing. and ya forgot to say the boss was sitting around my area. so stressed!!! ah niu even took the wrong order from the boss. suay.

was asked to go for i-dont-know-why. i was still serving a client lor. bullshit lah him. crap. so happily we missed our cab fares. =(

took the bus to yishun then cabbed home.

dammit. didnt managed to take any photos. boo~~~~~~

oh ya, when we went to change into our shirts, there were 2 guys in the ladies repairing the tap or sth. i was scared lah so i changed very fast. then when i walked out they stared talking to me. and the same chi guy talked to me on day 2 asking me how's work. duhh. crap.

day 3:

didnt go to work cause my feet pain like shit. damn lor. walk on floor still pain sia. duhh. scott didnt go either. haha. anyway i think today will be such a big event lor. cause today's the last day. should have gone lah. but if go then scott never go then no one acc me home siak. =x haha.

another cool thing. i saw fei sleep!!!!! with her eyes close. haha. so cute lor. hehe. =D i'm surprised cause she has never slept with her eyes close before! wahhh amazing. =]

this is crap lor. i spelled carrot cake as CARRAT CAKE! damn! this is crazy~

worked today. another crap lah. so tiring lor. now my entire body is breaking down. haha. so exhausted.

got back my results today. the third crap. other than business environment and ecpj, i'm rather happy with my other results. especially DBMS!!! my favourite~ woohoO~~!

a fat pig slept on my bed today. so fat can? then still purposely lie on top of me. duhh. PIG PIG PIG! blehs.

went to ps for a movie with mr bin(okay i dont know his surname lah) and mr paglar. pulse. omg. at first thought it was those kind of damn freaky and scary movie. but it turned out to be some freqencies thingy that evolve to a thing that overpower the whole human whole. and that thing travels via freqencies etc etc. haha. walked around and saw daiso! new one leh. so small and compact lor. wahahah.

we left cause mr bin needs to meet his friend. so on the way to the centre of the platform, we saw this two gays lor! okay, i assumed they are gays lor cause they are behaving so like intimately. haha. and best is one of the gays looks damn like DICK LEE! one muscular dick lee. can you imagine?! wahaha. so funny lor.

after we boarded the train, the gays boarded with us. haha. and ya, i almost fell cause i lost balance at one stop. BUT THEN, it's not funny okay! dont laugh~ not my fault also what. is the train jerky lor. duhh. haha. we saw a very very very very very retro guy. the hairstyle, the specs, the dressing. the everything!

went to amk while mr bin went to yck. bid goodbye to him and continue laughing at the retro guy and the gays. haha. went to check out the pricing of my lens. actually i expected them to be cheaper but no. similar lor. haha.

oh ya, book my btt. haha. die i'm like so gonna fail. haha. hope they two wouldnt pass. want pass must pass together right? wahaha. saw my bf for a couple of minutes only. =( that nuthead! bleh.

this is a shark that evolved itself till it can literally walk with it's fins!

this is the monster looking creature. haha. both of the weird creatures are found in deep seas in indonesia. so cool right? they found alot more of this kinda undiscovered creatures lor. interesting one? muahahah.

in conclusion, i'm like gonna see so much of mr paglar for 4 consecutive days lor. omg. sure nightmare siak. =x haha.

i tried to pet fei fei and mochi to sleep yesterday. and after thinking that mochi fell asleep, fei happily start helping mochi clean up and *tada* mochi woke up. -.- damn sian lah. haha. i think my buns are getting dumber. oops. haha.

i pretty much like today. =D

hahaha. just realised i forgot to blog bout something yesterday. mr marshmallow looks damn funny when he's angry. we took lots of funny pictures yesterday too. haha.

i just found out that adriano's of the same age as me. darling, you know what to do liao hor. we two are possible. =x muahahaha. he's so so so so cute can. tsk tsk.

read through some of his posts. seems to me that he's those kind who keeps things to himself. and he dont blog out every of his feelings either. just like me. we're a match. wahaha. i think i'mma get killed if bf reads this post. hehe.

watched part of original sin starring someone and angelina jolie. so so so so much kissing scenes. i wonder how they could actually kiss someone who they're not in love in and yet kiss so well. wahaha. and there was this part where the bad guy spit into her mouth and they continue kissing. woah! haha.

raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano.
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see the similarities?










both consist of 7 letters. both are guys. both are gays. =x haha.


raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano. raymond. adriano.


see the difference?


























one is raymond, one is adriano! haha. crap. two things for sure that are different between them for sure. one is confirm my very sweet bf and he is very in love with me. muahahah. =D

almost had a quarrel with that nuthead. he lah. no words seems to be able to describe him. haha. but in the end we still met up lah. haha. then he waited for me at the bus stop. ehh, alright, i forced him to do so. wahaha. played ps2. then watched bleach. almost had a quarrel again cause of something. that bitch! bleh. then went to eat at compass point. so nice. hehe.

aites, i love MARSHMALLOW!! muahahah.

haha, i found adriano's blog! haha. so cute can. god, i think my bf's gonna be so so so so jealous lor. haha, so bf, you know what to do huh. update your blog if not i'll just read his! wahahha. blehs.

oh ya, chatted with mr shy(actually he's see hongyee lah but he claims that he's SHY so....) he was the only person who i will laugh hesterically whenever i see him. actually i dont know why i'd laugh too but i'll just laugh somehow. haha. why why why? why on earth did i laugh sia? but anyway chatting with him is very relaxing cause everytime i think of him i'll feel like laughing. anyway he fake as my cousin keep away a guy cause there was this irritating guy who keeps trying to sound me at my workplace. and ya, heard a good news from him. he's got a gf!! haha. and the girl was my colleague. haha. and he says he keep seeing me around semb area. obviously right? i stay here! haha. and his girl stays arounbd my area too that's why he keep seeing me. haha.

bf, dont be jealous kay? i'm all about you. wahaha.

i think fei rip off mochi's fur lor. that nuthead. argh! i'm gonna bite that powder pack! haha.

I get a feeling
I can't explain
Whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
And I lose all space and time
And now that we're standing face to face
Somethin' tells me
It's gonna be okay

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

I know you've been watching
Choosin' your moment
I've been dreaming of that day
No one before you has gotten to me this way
And now that we're standing face to face
There's something that I need to say

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Nothing is certain, this I know
Wherever we're headed I'm ready to go
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

i've decided to dress prettily tomorrow and be more ladyyy. =D

having a damn headache lah. slept and now it became worst like that. so now i've got on-off chest pains. damn. bleh!

elvis' working at giant. WAHAHA. funny siak.

that bitch's not replying me. idiot. blehs.

some damn prob with my phone again. haiiiiiiiiiiiii.

confirmed working days = mon, thurs, fri and sat. yay~ =D

i think my bf stink the whole place today. ahha. i'm like addicted to chicken rice and the chicken feet! omg. how how? haha.

had a talk with my darling just now. unlike him, i would very much like to stay in singapore ya know? it's just the sense of security and all that make me wanna stay. but i dont mind living abroad a couple of months before coming back~ =D

i love you my darling.

and glitter when you can. shine like a star.

edited my blog skin. wahaha. i love this blog skin for now~ yay!

haha. i saw mochi doing something stupid. she reverse her way out! wahaha. so cute lor. and she did domething mean to berry. she step over berry to change her direction so that both of them are in the same direction. HAHA. =D

met wani. felt so wu nai lor when i see her cry. just didnt know what to do and what i could do. feeling kinda useless. bah!

hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai hai

if my bf did this kinda things to me, i would very much wanna die. anyway he's already something like that already. but he's still much better than her bf. so bf, you better treat me better. if not just end this now.

a relationship is like a seed. it requires lots of love, care and concern in order to grow big, to grow into a big tree. or even better a fruit tree.

i keep feeling very hungry. hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry!

whatever, whatever, whatever, whatever, whatever.

had such wonderful day till that nut head broke my necklace. then everything start going down. stupid dumb dumb lah. went to disturb him while his was sleeping then he keep tsk-ing me. you insensitive bitch! you know i hate ppl to tsk me one lor unless i'm playing lah. duhh. make me pissed off only. hmph! blehs.

berry doesnt want to play with me. =(

haha. wow. lelia is still with that guy! so long seh. jealous. nvm. i'll try to win her. hehe. but obviously not in the sense of time lah. somehow i'll try to win her. tsk tsk.

i am sam is such a sweet cum sad show lor. everytime i watch i still feel like crying. =x haha. darling where are you!?

met mr scott andrew paglar cause i wanted to get some stuff. heh.

i'm now home enjoying 'i am sam' and chatting with lelia. miss the times with her lor. the issue with mr hasrin and lim weekeong. haha. i'll try to catch back with her. =D

bf, BF! where are you! haha.

wh msg me some weird stuffs today. he ask me if i could like him. obviously not now until i'm finished with my current super act cute bf lah. which is on xx/xx/xxxx. hehs. anyway, got a shock lah. but i'm happy cause there's another person who wanna steal my heart. so be careful hor my bf! blehs. hehe. anyway msg halfway then he no reply liao. so i just asked raymond what happened to him. then, he say he broke up with his girl already. no wonder he will say such weird stuffs. it must have hurt alot. that's what happen when both dont accomodate to each other? eh, dont know lah. i cant judge anything also. i only know the guy side of the story and not the girl's side. so let nature take it's course ba.

actually i wonder how my life would be if he was not with me anymore. would it be like that between me and alan? or would it be a total different story? i've alway imagined thatif we broke up, after breaking up with him how would life be? would he still love me like what he had said before? or would he fall for someone else after a few days? would he still love me during our breakup time and hopes to patch with me and try all means to win me back? or would he stay out of my life forever? for me, i would choose not to, still, keep in contact with him i guess. cause the times we've been through is so much. so many things that have been shared. i wonder if i could still cope with life if i broke up with him. cause there's no one to rely one. all along i've been relying on him and only him. not my friends, not my clique. my reliance on him has grown increasingly. so much that i cant pull myself away.

all the while i've been giving in to this relationship cause i think this guy, raymond sung feng lim, is just so special to me. i believe in him. so much so that if he break my trust, everything would also just fall apart. cause if even he will lie to me, i dont know who to trust anymore. though i hate him at times and his name cause it's like so common(bleh!), i still love him very much. darling read here. msmeisme.blogspot.com hehe

but anyway, woke up early in the morning today. then went to buona vista. so far right? did some job then left in the noon. had really bad heart pains in the morning then followed by stomach pains. wonder what's wrong with my stomach. been having these pains for quite a few days already. especially after eating or drinking. and worst is i'm having a bad flu now. the tap keeps leaking and sneezing. used so much tissue already lor. =(

oh ya, i tried to catch fei yest but think she's too fat smooth that she slip through my hands. haha. that nut head. berry is not eating the vegetables! ahh, so fussy.

i think san shi from my lovely samsoon is SUPER DUPER CUTE and SWEET LOR! bf, pleaseeee learn from him k? hee.

having a bad headache. =( but i touched FEI!!!!! YAY~ hehe. but that nut head tried to bite me when i was feeding her. so touching her was her punishment! hehe. that fat girl. bleh!

and i saw andrew today. that elvis' clique one. haha. think he was damn shocked when he saw me. so was i lah. then he keep like staring one kind like that. eyer!

i said something stupid. i told sis ' imagine i bite fei, will powder burst out of her?' HAHA.

called up guess. had to fill in application then can siak. ahhH~ boring. haha. but hopefully i get in lah. hehe.

met up ifah and waney today. went to buy my heels. haha. sorry! make you all walk such a long long long wayyyy~ =x

what is friendship/friends? ehh, i really dont know what is friendship or friends. maybe they are just something you make use of, something you use to backstab others and gain your friendship in another way. to me, friends seems to play a small part of my life for now. i dont have friends who i really do trust. those i've trusted turned their backs on me, backstabbed me, hurt me. so what are friends exactly? those who you claim to be your friend, do you really trust them completely? or in another way, do they even trust you at all or even a single bit or is it purely your wishful thought? friendship is easy to make but difficult to maintain. aint this sentence so right?

everytime i choose to trust, you all just make me think twice again. so very well, i... actually i dont know what to do. someone just tell me that i can trust you can?! bah!

damn damn! i'm like so blur nowadays lor. i'm supposed to work on 21-23 not tmr till sat! OMG! haha. then ownself make ownself kan chiong only lor. lol.

i've a super dumb dumb bf who makes me worry every single time. you gong gong! blehs.

ate fried mar bar today. it's heavenly can? tsk tsk. abit exaggerating lah. but it's damn nice. very chocolatey. very suits me. oops. haha. =D

i made a little something for my darling cause i simply cant sleep at night. haha. he loves it. tsk tsk. hopefully he meant what he say lah. haha.

went job hunting with bosheng. guess? wait for me! i'm comingggg~ wahaha.

saw irene and cp. scare me sia she. suddenly scream my name out of nowhere. haha.

my second bf's gf has another guy out there. so poor thing right? and my stupid bf went to say that he was silly. haha. dumb boy. i mean love is silly, isnt it?

walked around and around. haha. then rest abit then walked around again. and damn i saw that asshole bryan soh. bitch sia. still purposely cut through my way. make me lose my cool only. haha. super pissed lor. bah!

then we went to ps. haha. walked around then my bf came and bs left to meet his friends. haha. damn shocked lah. these guys can really play man. playing photohunt for 3 hours plus can kill man. haha.

went around to shop for black pants and shoes. bought my pants and saw this really nice heels. but ahhh, dont have my size. went to another place, then dont have my size either. idiotic right? how suay can i be? haha. high gloss. woohoo~ i love high gloss!!! hehe.

i wanna steal scott's dog lah. if not jisheng one will be good too. hehe.

i love you too, mr you. =D

snipped off my hair and now i dont know how to style my hair already. =( haha. went to cut my hair with my bf and his lover. all funny sia. go cut short. lol. oh ya, the hair dresser was real pretty lor. she looks really like belinda lee. pretty siak.

job hunting tomorrow. yay~ going out with my dear primary school mate who i never had a chance to be closer. haha. all the best to me. and him. wahaha.

our dearest FEI and MOCHI went into my room again!!! those pigs. haha.

i think berry is getting fatter too. =x wahaha.

i finally found the culprits who spoil my bag. that's FEI and MOCHI!!! dumb dumb right? they ran into my room when i was going to feed them. then when i went back to my sis room and found them missing and also missing from the living room, i knew something bad happened. htey're in my room! haha. had a hard time chasing them out. haha. go liao bye. i love my bf. muahahah.

watched ghost game on friday. damn freaky lah. but lousy ending. then went to sunplaza to loiter. cause it was already very late and he dont have any transport back already. so loiter and loiter. sis asked to get vegetables for the pigs. but then it was already in the middle of the night, where still open right? so decided to get the salad from mac. aint my pigs lucky? haha.

then wasted time but walking here and there. we saw two dogs. a couple. the female one was kinda injured. so poor thing right? so we decided to buy some milk for them. feed them. so cute lor. you should see them. then, the female one came very close to my darling. and he was like 'oei oei, dont come near me hor' haha. so cute lor. that look on his face. *melts. hehe.

fed half of the 1litre milk and went back to mac to buy the salads. then we purposely walked back to see if they were still there. and indeed, they were. so cute can? the guy was like looking out for the girl while she was resting. so sweeeeeet~ =D then i pour out all the rest of the milk for them expecting them to finish it. but they didnt. they followed us when we walked off. haha. then i was saying imagine they appeared at my house before me or if they followed me home. wahaha. we went to a void deck to sort of lose them. we started eating some salad. =x haha.when we left, we didnt see them already. =(

went back to my house. watched full house. talked awhile before sleeping. so nice to have and know that there's someone beside accompanying you through the night. =))

woke up in the afternoon cause my sis asked to bring the ntuc card for her. sleepily, wake my darling. then went down to find sis. went home after awhile. i pity my bf cause he became the 'maid'. wahaha. then went back to sleep. after plenty of sleep, we finally planned to get up. haha. washed up, bathed and then went to his house. had a little tiff in between but all was well after. =D

reached his house. he bathed. i used the net while he bathed. his sis keeps talking to me. haha. so cute. hehe. then some time, we left for town. wasted our time there. met his ai ren and the girl. and the girl is like so small size can? envious lah. took the sweater from him. went up to see if there's any nice shows. but there wasnt. so went to buy an ice cream and then cam whore ourselves. wahaha. went to cineleisure after that. walked around and around. talked, ate and lamed around. feel happy with him around. haha. went to swensens to have ice cream. so nice can? hehe. then we did something stupid. we borrowed a pen from the manager. haha. then the manager being a superb nice guy lend us the better pen. woah~ honoured. hehe.

after much talking, we went home on the night rider. endless talks. hehe. went to the prata shop to have our breakfast. all because of my fat bf lah. tsk tsk. =P

i spent like more than 48hours with my darling. huahahaks. so enjoyable lah. i mean like it's hard to have someone you love to be around with for a constant 24 hours not to say 48 hours! hehe. people, be jealous k? hehe.

aites, now it's the boring holidays already. sian. i've to like find a job but no jobs seems to be available. =( haha.

talk so much to my dearest and ya, maybe most things that we've experienced before led to our mindsets now. all this terrible experiences leads to the different defination of friendship. but anyway, i love this guy. at least i've found someone who've gotten such bad experiences and understand how i feel. that's why, till now, i've never really believe in friendship. whenever i believe in it, i got stabbed in the back. so well, we shall see how life goes on.

to me, friends are ones who accept who you are, how you are and the kind of person you are. but sad to say, i've only met 2 or 3 this kind of people in my poly life. then there were times where they gained my trust and then pushed me down.

that's life i suppose. and i'm accepting it already. getting used to it. getting used and prepared for the outside society. =)

i smell my mom's smell. haiz.